Happiness, Glitter & Daydreams

Life is a series of experiences , of learning , falling and picking yourself up again. I am turning 40 shortly and never have I been more aware than now of how fast life moves , how dreams can sometimes be changed by circumstance and by how with maturity comes the confidence to not be swayed by others opinions and insecurities.

What I have however come to realise is that life can be lonely... yes even in a room full of people , that Faith is what keeps you going , Hope is what drives you and depression ... that which can very easily drag you down.

This year I have really struggled to come to terms with my singleness , my loneliness for a life partner and my longing for a home. I have had to make a conscious decision to keep walking and not let depression try and take hold of me and consume me.

Don't get me wrong ... if life were measured in friends I consider myself a millionaire ... yet no one can fill that role of a mate , the closeness , the love , the looks across the room and yes, even the disagreements. Life of a singleton is a very lonely place ... even more so in a Christian society.

Modern society has added to this state of seperation, due to promiscuity and adultery friends can no longer be trusted and people tend to draw in the familiar  'like looking for like' in otherwords you will seldom find single friends at a family orientated gathering ... we are the percieved 'threat' often thought of as desperate ... yeah whatever!

So short of going to single friends who are all women anyway meeting Mr Right is left to God because heaven alone knows it is not easy.

'Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.' 
Psalm 55:22

I am trying my best to embrace the 40's after all I am reminded everyday that life supposedly starts at 40!


Today I lay my worries at the Lord's feet and once again ...