Happiness, Glitter & Daydreams

Today more than ever I am feeling like I'm in a place of darkness and drought. I know it is just my black tinted glasses and yet still I feel myself accusing 'myself ' of wrong decisions ...doubting whether what I did was good enough.

Could I have done something different so that I would be in a better financial position , would it be better if I were not carrying so much extra weight... seeing myself as worthless and ugly?

Besides the whole 'shindig' with my car , I am finding myself seeing everyone else getting opportunities to do things I want to do , go places I want to go ...

I need to wake up and realize how lucky I am , God has placed so many opportunities at my door that I could never have dreamt of and here I am being ungrateful.

I find myself drifting in dark places at the moment, but still clinging to my faith .... to my God whom I know is faithful. I am still praying and trusting for miracles everyday with regards to fixing my car and as for opportunities ... Thank you Lord for those that do cross my path for I know they are sent by you.

Today I release my depression , my fear , my self loathing and I embrace the 'me' you created , celebrating happiness instead of darkness.