Firstly I have to say thank you today to those of you that read my blog regularly , without knowing it you are a silent listener... which means that you give me safe place to share my thoughts and feelings ... it helps , it really does..... THANK YOU!
Today I just want to share once again how God's heart is for us to forgive ALL , yes ALL .. everyones weaknesses .. this doesn't mean you have to agree with the circumstances. To hold bitterness inside causes your heart and your Spirit to fester and become ill ... It is not what God wants for you!
'21Then Peter came and said to Him, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me and I forgive him? Up to seven times?" 22Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.' MATTHEW 18 V 21-22 - SOURCE
God has this to share about bitterness in the Bible ...
'Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.' Ephesians 4:31-32 - (ESV) - SOURCE
I am saddened when friends can't find forgiveness in their heart , when Satan robs their joy and they try to project , influence and infect others. I refuse to be drawn or dragged into their discontent.
My God is a God who conquers all , who loves equally and selflessly , who operates and rules under grace NOT judgement and condemnation ... no, I will not be swayed.
Today I am going to pray for the friends whose heart is hurting and for God to give me strength in adversity , He is my rock and my Fortress always!
Dear Lord
Please forgive those who cannot find forgiveness in their heart
Lord soften their hearts to be one of kindness and love
lift all signs of bitterness and resentment Lord
and replace it Jesus with Love , Forgiveness and Understanding.
Lord let us look more like you everday and live less in the 'flesh'
I pray that you would guide us all , give us strength for each day
fill us with light and happiness.
In your precious name Jesus
Amen x
Today more than ever I am feeling like I'm in a place of darkness and drought. I know it is just my black tinted glasses and yet still I feel myself accusing 'myself ' of wrong decisions ...doubting whether what I did was good enough.
Could I have done something different so that I would be in a better financial position , would it be better if I were not carrying so much extra weight... seeing myself as worthless and ugly?
Besides the whole 'shindig' with my car , I am finding myself seeing everyone else getting opportunities to do things I want to do , go places I want to go ...
I need to wake up and realize how lucky I am , God has placed so many opportunities at my door that I could never have dreamt of and here I am being ungrateful.
I find myself drifting in dark places at the moment, but still clinging to my faith .... to my God whom I know is faithful. I am still praying and trusting for miracles everyday with regards to fixing my car and as for opportunities ... Thank you Lord for those that do cross my path for I know they are sent by you.
Today I release my depression , my fear , my self loathing and I embrace the 'me' you created , celebrating happiness instead of darkness.
Time is such a crazy commodity if you really think about it ...
We can trade time for opportunity ...we can chase time when we are late ....we can loose time we we cross the ocean ...we can make time for friends and family, and yet really it is an ever elusive, intangible 'thing'.
We can never turn back time or regain time, and so really to me it has become evident more and more each year how important it is to 'take time', to consciously appreciate the good in each and every day.
As I have progressed in age, I have come to realize how precious time is. My parents are getting older and more frail, so each day is a gift from above. I am lucky enough to still have a grandparent (92yrs), a blessing I would never have imagined.
Yet sometimes I still feel as though time has robbed me of a life I always yearned for and dreamed of as a little girl. Where is my husband? My children? My house with the white picket fence? ......
You see we make mistakes , we pick ourselves up and we continue ....but time marches on, and not necessarily to our beat.
My heart gets sore at times thinking of all the missed opportunities , the people who have used and taken advantage of me .... I am tempted at times to assign blame, and to stamp my foot in petulence infuriated at life , circumstances, people, the list goes on and on ....
But in all honesty I made the choices that determined my future, and so I have to accept my role in the current positioning of the 'here and now' ....do I like it? NO!
What I have come to realise though, is that God takes all negatives and turns them into a positives. Today I may not see what the future holds...it may not even make sense to me, yet I must stand in Faith and wait, knowing that my God is a good God. He loves me and will never 'abandon' me.
He knows the desires of my heart. My life may not be happening as I had dreamed but it is happening according to His plan and purpose and whats more.... His timing is always perfect.
Today I encourage you to stop trying to reign in the intangible 'sands of time', and just let go....
HAVE FAITH
