Happiness, Glitter & Daydreams

There is that Christian song by Chris Tomlin , I am not sure who it s by right now but it goes ' better is one day in your courts , better is one day in your house than a thousand elsewhere...' These words are taken from the bible  a verse I am well familiar with... Psalm 84v10

I always rest in the knowledge that I am in the Lords courts and that He alone can cover me and protect me from all that the world can throw at me ... Which leads to my tears and frustrations today, for about the fourth time in less than 3 months I find myself once again stranded on the roadside as my car has broken down.

Now normally most people would say just call the tow truck and get him to tow you , your insurance will have it covered right ? Wrong! You see I have been on a long and faithful journey of honoring my father, of working to uphold a business that can provide him and my mom some sort of income ...why? Well about 13 yrs ago my family lost everything , houses , pensions , cars  and policies leaving my parents in their late 50's and 60's to have to rebuild all that they had worked so hard for .

When I was asked to come and help run the business for my then 70yr old dad , how could I say no? I settled for less than half my salary , but at the same time gave up the stress and pressure of a normal job. This position has also allowed me to persue some of my more creative talents and to learn about social media.

It has been about 5 yrs now and financially I am struggling to cope, it is becoming more and more evident in my standard of living and now in not being able to maintain my car. I am divorced , going on forty and trying to survive in a world that is not made for singles. My rent alone is nearly two thirds of my salary .... And today as my gear box gives in completely, I feel myself finally succumbing to the pressure of  not being able to cope.

I have been praying to God to bless me with a reliable little car , send me a housemate and even a husband ....to no avail.

So today I am here in front of all of you , refusing to give up my faith and instead and I am askng God to open new doors , new opportunities and help me find a solution to this car and the finances needed to fix it!