Happiness, Glitter & Daydreams

I am going on forty this year , life has had it's up's and downs, but little could've prepared me for my current reality.
I am divorced , I have no children , I am lonely and my heart yearns for so much more.

The funny thing is that just today I was chatting to my mum and saying that I am at peace with not having kids ... If I could just meet someone to share my life with I would be so happy .... A hippocrate, that's what I am!

All it takes is one chick flick of happy marriages and family ...sweet romance  , cute pinched up noses and I am history ...yep a mushy mess of mascara and self pity ....Blegh!

You see I've been around long enough to understand that no relationship is 'Hunkey Dorey' all of the time. I know it takes work , sacrifice and sometimes a lot of self control ..... However I have also tasted of the companionship , the happy times and the joy that comes from being really good friends  in a relationship.... It is this that I miss, more than I could ever explain.

So what is my point? Well today I am just putting it 'out there ' in the hope that The Lord will send me someone who loves me for who I am. Someone who will see past my physical flaws and see the heart inside just dying to lavish love on a person. Someone I trust and hope will be my best friend and confidante.

You see I believe if you speak it , release it and let it go ....it is then finished ...part of the past ....and the beginning of a new start. After all that is why I named this blog CHOOSING HAPPINESS!