So I guess they say that life happens ... And boy it sure does!

My life has been the most incredible year filled with turmoil , revelation , sadness , happiness and everything in between. Whilst may have changed 180' I am still in the midt of sadness with my gran in hospital after having a stroke and I really wish our daddy in heaven would just take her home now, she is in so much pain and unable to speak ... It's pure torture!

My life this past year has been a journey of a disappointing promise , which led to the most amazing job which has me feeling excited and fulfilled everyday.

I hit the most debilitating depression about 4 months ago which has led to a personal health and weightloss journey and a shedding of some 22kg's so far.

I have started exercising and fit camp and I honestly feel more healthy than I have in a very long time.

My journey has been amazing but the one constant that has kept me going and focused is God , never forget how awesome and powerful our God is!

So here I sit once again , taken for a ride , used , abused and then treated like rubbish! Your words echo in my head 'trust me' , 'we are not like the others' , 'we stand for empowering people' and yet here we are ...

I am left with no finances , my cats sit without food , I have no petrol to visit my mom who is just out of hospital and you say you are doing things with 'honesty and integrity' really? and then you say 'so help me God'?

You don't even believe in God! You believe in a higher power or something like that ...

BUT!

I know my God , He see all, He hears all and He knows me by name. He has taught me that 'If God is for us NO MAN or WOMAN can stand against us' Romans 8 v31 and I know that once again he will restore me with beauty for ashes.

I forgive you and choose to purge this hurt and pain from my heart today , but I do not like you and I have now seen the truth behind the facade.

May God truly be with you because I sure know that He is indeed by my side ... I am a winner , I am more than a conqueror and I will go great places all on the foundation of my precious Lord & Saviour!

Despite what you have done and are doing I still choose ...

There is nothing that tests ones strength quite like difficult and stressful times and likewise there is nothing that tests ones faith and dedication quite like normalicy.

Stressful times cause us to cry out to God and narmalicy creates a lack of crying out to God sometimes ... it is so easy to be complacent and quiet when all is well ... don't never stop , never give up the gift of being able to worship and celebrate our Lord without persecution for your beliefs ... treasure every moment of everyday and count your blessings .... it's a privilege that few have!

Our God , our Lord and our Provider is so awesome in how He loves us and wait patiently on us. Today I just want to take a moment and celebrate how great our God is and worship him in prayer...

Father God
Thank you that you give me strength to face each day anew
Thank you for being a rock for us to stand on in times of need
Thank you for never giving up on me Jesus
Thank you for providing food for my table , friends for my soul
and kitties to keep my heart full of love
Thank you Lord for just being , to you be the glory
To you be the honour Lord
In Jesus name
x Amen

I love forests and I am a real winter baby , if I could live in a log cabin in the mountains alongside a lake it would make me the happiest person alive.

I find forests peaceful , serene and with many a hidden treasure. Even more intriguing is the way the light plays through the branches of the trees.

In my mind I envision these glorious beams and rays of light shining down on me , almost as though God has made each and everyone of us to shine in the spotlight of our journey called ' life'. You'll notice though it is not harsh light or penetrating light, but rather a soft luminescence that seems to hug it's surroundings ...highlighting the beauty that is all around.

Today as I dream a little again of living in the forest , of walking and foraging for treasure I am reminded that God is my forest ...my rest and my peace. All I need do is search for the treasures in His word and I will once again be refreshed and restored ...

As my day begins I sit here peaceful in the knowledge that God is good ALL OF THE TIME and today my worries are laid at His feet. Though I may have moments of weakness my Faith remain unwavering...

May you also find peace for your day today ...